Dirty House Tour

The most frustrating part about taking care of a baby is how little time I have to do anything else. It’s hard to keep up with even the simplest of chores because I’m always holding, comforting, changing, feeding, pumping, or napping. If my house is clean, it means that Chase is home from work to help out, or that I haven’t slept. Today was particularly bad. Here’s a tour of my messy apartment. Please ignore the sniffling – In addition to dealing with sleep deprivation, I am now battling a cold. Boo hoo. Feel sorry for me.


January 31, 2010 at 3:24 pm 4 comments

Brainstorming – Maternity Leave Plans

  • Give Whitney breast milk for as long as possible and don’t give up on pumping even though it really, really sucks (more on my breastfeeding woes another time).
  • Get my G1 (learner’s permit) again and re-learn how to drive.
  • Meet other moms to hang out with.
  • Take a class/join a social group with Whitney.
  • Take 1 hour walks with the baby and dog when the weather is clear and the temperature is above 5 degrees.
  • Lose 10 lbs.
  • Have at least 1 social outing a week with my friends.
  • Read a book for myself every two weeks.
  • Read a book a day to Whitney.
  • Have at least 1 mommy-daughter outing a week to the library.
  • Make dinner 4 times a week.
  • Try a new recipe 2 times a month.
  • Make 1 video blog a month.
  • Update Morag and Me and/or State of My Hoo Hoo at least 1 time a week.
  • Keep my house guest-ready (or at least, clean enough that I don’t want to crawl under a pile of garbage when people come to visit).
  • Print more pictures and hang them around my apartment.
  • Be more mindful about how I spend money and pay down my debts.
  • Do random nice things for my friends and family.
  • Visit my family at least 1 time every 2 months (more, if financially viable).
  • Do something crafty at least 1 time a month.
  • Become a more competent and independent individual so that I can be a better mom.
  • Not take a single moment for granted.
  • January 28, 2010 at 6:56 pm 6 comments

    It Freaks Me Out When People Think My Biggest Concern is the Scar…

    Really, I shouldn’t have watched this video….

    I am shitting myself.

    December 6, 2009 at 11:21 pm 1 comment

    Move, Baby! Move!

    Looking over my old entries, I’m coming to realize just how far behind I am in my updates. In the 10+ weeks since my last post, I saw an OBGYN, got myself a midwife, had another ultrasound (baby still doesn’t want to reveal its naughty bits), gained 10 lbs, had someone couch surf at my place for over 2 months, tried to move out of my apartment (no luck), had a baby shower, started preparing my home for Butterbean, had at least 5 nervous breakdowns about money, decided on a boy’s name (kind of)…

    I also spent WAY too much time and energy freaking out about things that turned out to be nothing. The list of complications (that turned out not to be complications at all) seems endless, from high blood pressure (which turned out to be nothing), a bladder infection (which turned out to be ligament pain), a potential detached placenta (ligament pain), a low-lying placenta (which has since moved out of the way), to an incompetent cervix (which is holding up really well – knock wood).

    In the face of what I’ve been calling fake complications, a very real worry has sprouted up. My cervix is much shorter than it should be (at around 30 weeks, it was 1.2cm long when it should have been over 3cm, almost 4). A technician accidentally discovered it during a very invasive ultrasound for that low-lying placenta thing, and I was threatened with bed rest until the cervix specialist who my midwife consulted with basically said “Screw it! If you go into labour early, it’s not a big deal. Carry on!”

    In that same ultrasound, I was told that Butterbean is in the frank breech position, which means that she’s chilling out in there, bum down, with her legs around her ears. This baby is already trouble! Normally, the baby’s position isn’t a HUGE cause for concern until around 37-40 weeks, but because my cervix is a ticking time bomb of incompetency, I could go into labour at any time. If the baby is in breech position when my water breaks, it basically means an automatic c-section (which I am 100% against).

    SO, for the past month or so, Chase and I have been doing everything we can to get Butterbean to turn head-down. I’ve talked to my belly, played music to it, willed the baby to move, did yoga poses, laid for long stretches of time with my butt in the air, crawled on all fours, went to the chiropractor to get the Webster Technique done (7 adjustments later, and no change), had a shiatsu massage, had acupuncture, started taking homeopathic remedies (pulsatilla), pinched my baby toes… I’ve tried stuff I don’t even believe in to get this baby to move; I’ve done practically everything except bury an animal penis in my back yard (and I’d probably do that, too, if someone said it would help).

    My midwife scheduled me an ECV (external cephalic version) for this Wednesday. Depending on who you talk to, an ECV is either a very good or very bad idea. Basically, it means that a doctor is going to poke and prod at my belly and push the baby into place. The risks include your water breaking, your baby’s heart rate dropping significantly, and your placenta detaching itself from your uterus (I was told this isn’t a real risk, but something they’re obligated to tell you because it’s HYPOTHETICALLY possible). A version is only successful part of the time, and even when it is, you run the risk of the baby turning bum-down again while you wait to go into labour.

    It’s all very stressful. I’m convinced that, despite the fact that my cervix is so tiny, I will carry to term (40 weeks or later), and the baby will probably turn by itself in that time. That being said, if this pregnancy ends in surgery, I would kick myself in the butt if I knew that there was something I could have done to avoid it… Here’s hoping that the baby flips on her own soon, and stays flipped until she’s ready to make her escape.

    Here’s a cheery ECV video:

    December 6, 2009 at 9:03 pm 3 comments

    Typical Morag

    I have a lot to post about (obviously I have a lot to post about -I haven’t written a thing in over 10 weeks), but every time I sit down to do it, I get overwhelmed and turn my computer off. Note to self: procrastination inevitably leads to more procrastination.

    And speaking of procrastination… I’m going to make (and post!) a video sometime this week to make up for my lack of blogging (also, because I am lazy and a spoken recap of the past 3 months seems much easier than a text one). I’m just waiting for some privacy so I don’t die of embarrassment while I tape it.

    December 2, 2009 at 11:00 pm 1 comment

    Baby Swag from Aunt Whitney

    Chase and I went to Chesterville to visit my family last weekend, and we were greeted with a huge bag of gifts from my sister (the only person more excited about this baby than I am).

    Baby Swag from Aunt Whitty

    Baby Swag from Aunt Whitty
    I love everything Whitney got, but this snowsuit is probably my very favourite. The ears kill me!

    When I found out I was pregnant, Whit was the first person I told. I called her, crying, saying things like “How am I going to afford a baby?” and “Mom and dad are going to KILL me!” and she was all “Yeah, yeah. Whatever. I am going to have a niece or nephew! Are you still going to name her after me?!”

    At the risk of sounding like a sappy bastard, I am so happy that my baby is going to grow up knowing her aunt, who is probably my favourite person on earth (if Whitney ever reads this, she’s totally going to roll her eyes).

    **Some of the yarn Whitney gave me has already been crafted into a baby blanket. You can check out the details here.

    Today I am 24 weeks 2 days pregnant

    September 13, 2009 at 3:21 pm 3 comments

    So Much To Talk About!

    …. so little energy to do so! The weekend is coming, though, so once I’ve gotten caught up on my sleep I will craft some entries.

    In the meantime, I’ll just say that Butterbean continues to be pretty active. These past few days, she’s really kicked up the pace – so much so that you can now actually SEE her pushing against my stomach. Chase and I watched her move around last night, and this morning I spent too much time during a business meeting observing her pokes and prods as they rippled across my tummy. It is both very creepy, and very cool.

    Today I am 23 weeks and 6 days pregnant

    September 10, 2009 at 9:40 pm 1 comment

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